Part 2: Nihilistic Existentialism

Something in me changed when I got up early one morning while in quarantine. The rest of the family was asleep as I sauntered into the kitchen to make some coffee. While I gazed blankly at the drops of coffee plopping through the glass filter into the ceramic mug below, I began to cry. "Ah,"... Continue Reading →

Part 1: Existentialistic Nihilism

The funny, or more accurately, contradictory thing about university is it made me realize there is no meaning in life. I've spent all of my schooling years in the country's public education system believing there is one ultimate goal that all humanity share- a life purpose. To put it frankly, since the role of education... Continue Reading →

psychedelic whirlbwirls of youth

I gave it a year I gave myself a year. A year to let the currents of life take me To unexpected mouths of sudden rivers To novel, undiscovered earth I experienced the sweet, sweet euphony of friends’ chortles Like marveling at the breathtaking sight of cherry blossoms for the first time The fragile petals... Continue Reading →

Snippets of happiness in pain

I don't believe time heals everything. Pain accumulates- head being all over the place, mini existential crisis, guys from the past, family and just trying to get my shit together. Time passes, but the pain is still there. It comes back to haunt you, again and again. My experience in counseling sessions last time taught... Continue Reading →

Finding Certainty in Uncertainty

Finally, the long-awaited part of my life has arrived: I am a university freshmen! The past two weeks were full of orientation, camps, making new friends, meeting seniors and professors, having 3am confessions while hungover (not me), and most significant of all- moving into my dormitory. Against the backdrop of change, aka not knowing what... Continue Reading →

「Post-Alevels reflection: 拒绝西西弗斯式(sisyphean)的人生」

“我总感觉,大多数人这样度过一生,好像不大对劲儿。我承认这种生活的社会价值,我也看到它井然有序的幸福,但是,我的血液里有一种强烈的冲动,渴望一种桀骜不驯的旅程。这样的安逸总让我惊惧。我的心渴望更加惊险的生活。只要我能有所改变,  改变和不可预知的冒险,我将踏上嶙峋怪石, 哪怕激流险滩。” —月亮与六便士 (click to read more!)

Rejection is redirection

‘Dear Claire, we regret to inform you that your scholarship application is unsuccessful.’ This was the reply I received after weeks of waiting. When I received the news, I was not numb, not upset, not disappointed. I was relieved; I was happy. That was when I realised: I’ve been seeking external validation all along and... Continue Reading →

The 3 Interviews

2019. The year of new beginnings with countless new possibilities. As a high school graduate transitioning into a college freshmen, interviews have become part and parcel of my life. Here is a recollection of the experiences of my three interviews- all of them vastly different, unique, unpredictable and therefore memorable. The ‘cas’ convo with the... Continue Reading →

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